confused, hazed...traumatized!!

Its so disturbing when you find people that you grew up with, people u thought of as your younger sibling just change so much, that u are not sure of wheather you ever knew them at all....at this moment of time i dont know what to feel or how to react...somethings are just not of my level of understanding....sometimes i feel that my parents must have done something right that makes sure that i am never attracted to petty things which give you momentary pleasure...last night i heard something terrible about someone i really care about..and never in my life have i felt so helpless!...its so difficult to even believe that something could go that wrong.....and i hate it how my parents reacted to it...instead of figuring out a way to get things back to normal..they were busy feeling proud about the decisions they have made for me and how they were always right!...well i agree their decisions for me have always proven right but i dont see any point of discussing it at such a critical time!..may be even they couldnt comprehend with the situation.....wrong company can really ruin a person...but again what happens to the thing known as conscience..i mean how can you not be aware of what you are getting yourself into...somehow i have still not been able to get my mind off that ...hopefully its not as bad as i have been imagining it to be...and i'll pray that everything comes back to normal...